Probably one of the hardest things for women to do is lose their hair. It seems superficial and trite to focus on hair, when so much of the world is in crisis. After all, there are far worse situations than a follicularly challenged presentation of yourself; and far more things to Celebrate that are glorious!
So last night when I really began to notice the riverlike partings in my hair along with the soft glow of scalp shining through in a recent photo, I was at first really stressed by it and then almost immediately accepting of it, maybe too quickly in fact. Because when I woke up today it hit me kind of hard after I dried my hair and tried to fluff up the sides of my hair. So I pouted a bit as I put on my shoes and began to make breakfast.
My husband came down and could see I was a bit sad and after a hug and a “honey, I love you just the way you are.” it put things into perspective. I am what I am.
This is me, at least for now and it is really going to be ok.
I am healthy, eating well, moving more and honestly, I feel okay about my plus sized self because I am strong and pretty fun if I say so myself. So, I refuse to be in the “comb-over club” I will know when to throw in the towel and from the front it isn’t that noticeable, and if it is, who cares? I see balding men all the time. We are all just people.
Throughout the years of having thyroid disease, then thyroid cancer and treatments having fluctuations in my hair growth has been up and down but lately, more down. So with the advice of my sister and friend who both have had this challenge I am giving it one good try before surrendering. So, I am armed with cedar oils in my shampoo, 5,000 mgs of Biotin and grapeseed oil supplements added to my morning regimen and hoping for the best. I already decided that I would not become obsessed with it, there will be no injections or head massages and prescriptions with side effects worse than hair loss. There are just some things that happen.
And that is perfectly okay. Everyone has a cross to bear of some kind, mine just may be sanded down and smooth.
At first I was really terrified, who am I if I am not a raven haired lass with a bit of white flash blazed along my hairline? Then I realized this opens a brand new realm for me, hats, more scarves (Which I already adore and have many of) and it isn’t the end of the world.
You never know what life is going to throw at you, you just have to do what you can, find a healthy way to deal with it and if there’s something you can do, great and if not, find a way to accept it and move on.
So here’s hoping that things improve but also understanding that fretting over it, obsessing about it and letting it affect my happiness is not an option, because there are so many great things out there to be thankful for and I am reminded of them even before carving the turkey and that is pretty awesome.
Have a great day. Hug your peoples. Celebrate that you are up and moving and share the love and be thankful for the people in your life that know who you are inside and out.
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